Sunday, September 28, 2008

Just to update abit..work is getting better..im getting use to the jobscope alrdy.. Actually find that this job is pretty good..haha Just hope that i will be confrim..lol

Nw im trying to be more independent, dare to talk, dare to ask.. Hope that after working..i will be more mature..

The only thing that is nt getting good is..U... Its hard to maintain..cos we r staying far away.. but just hoping that we will still remain as what we used to be..

-------------------jinni fantasy--------------- ; {8:51 PM}
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Saturday, September 06, 2008

Cant slp dun want 2 slp dun feel like slping..although tml i gt work..but a work which i dun knw i should continue or stop..a retail base job which i think i dun really suit..ppl who knws me well knw that.. i also dun knw y i gt this problem..just find it hard 2 tok 2 customers.. i can tok very freely nicely to others, new friens but when come 2 customers especially working adults i feel uncomfortable..
n i really dun get y the person hire me cos when interview can tell that im nt really suit the job n actually i think she can tell that too but y still..zzz n somemore she also care abt my image nt gd enough zzzz so damn troublesome.. n can any1 tell me..is my spects childish???? she think its childish =_=
Or can i say im useless??? cant do this job..although its actually nt that hard..so im useless?? any1 agree?? think abt it i feel like crying..cos my life is like sooo plain..im nth...no acheivements..poly 3yrs also like wasted..cant do much things..
I also wish im more outgoing can tok freely 2 any1 no matter wad age wad standard..can tok confidently..dare 2 do anything..cos this kind of ppl think life is easier 4 them? i knw ppl can change..but how long will i take 2 change? n i did actually changed compared in sec sch..so imagine how much worst n quiet i use to be..
Wad is my strength i dun knw..i cant do others things other then related 2 drawing..but even nw i doubt in my design path..i dun think im actually gd in design..i only can just draw..nt creative nt imaginative..n being designer also need 2 knw how 2 present be confident...i dun have..so wads the aim of my life?

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-------------------jinni fantasy--------------- ; {1:45 AM}
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